Thinkinz
Sorry for the quiet, guys. >.> Life's been a lot of eat, work, sleep recently.

So I'm finally 26. Yup. ...feels a lot like 25, really. But the Birthday weekend in Baltimore was vurray good. Fun was had with everyone (although we shall not speak of the evils of driving in DC or just how badly my navigation sucks even when I'm on foot), and I can't wait to go back. Don't know when that will be.

So. It's October, which means the deadline for making a choice about what I want to do beyond Starbucks has passed. And I have made the choice. The nice thing about a 4 hour drive when radio stations tend to fuzz out or go to all country *shudder* is that you get the time to think. Or in my case, talk to myself. (Hush. I know what you're all thinking. Just hush.) Over the course of the drive through PA, I finally figured out why I had been so conflicted for the past few weeks. Why I've been waffling over what to do, dragging my feet on making an actual decision.

I already knew what I -wanted-, I was just afraid.

What happened at Golden Ring made me doubt myself. And considering I don't have a lot of self confidence to begin with, that compounded the problem considerably. I was afraid of putting myself out there again and being told I wasn't good enough. Because, essentially, that's what happened. They told me I wasn't good enough. Never mind that I had little to no support from the Administration, that I was in my second year and grossly overburdened, that I had classes that made Assistant Principals run screaming from the room. Never mind that I worked my ass off, that I had improved considerably from the first year. I wasn't good enough. I had a target on my back the day I walked through the door that second year, and there wasn't anything I could do to get it off.

I've told myself that a hundred times. The first time I actually -believed- it was driving down 76 without any music.

So the decisions been made. I -know- what I want. I want to teach. I want to teach English. I want to do it in either the private schools or the college level, because even if I know what I want, I'm not foolish enough to think I'm going to necessarily get it in public schools. (That's a rant for another day, I'm afraid.) I'm looking at Mastery programs around here, since quite a few private schools won't even look at you if you don't have a Masters, and no colleges will accept you without at least that. I'm also looking into the Department of Defense and their educational department thing. Because apparently they need teachers to teach in overseas bases.

...and apparently, Pearl Harbor counts as an overseas base. ...Just saying.

So yeah. A lot of Eat, Sleep, Work. A lot of researching. A lot of thinking. Fun stuff, really.

OH. And randomly. Chibi? Jenn? Remember Gay Tim for SHU? He totally walked into the store and put in an application. XD I love it.

See you on the flips, kids.